Killing sadness Book one underway.

To be blessed with the tools for writing, and having a great story to present, one rivaling Eckhart Tolle and Jordan Peterson's work, is the result of peer pressure and a lot of work online in Zoom sessions.

Killing Sadness...
is the title of my first book of a trilogy, a story of hope that zeros in on the heart of the problem. Sadness is a temporary thing, I was so so sad thinking climate change was going to end the party for good, then I found hundreds of people working on solutions to the issue. I am not so sad. Valuable connections are being made that make it true what they say about hope... it kills sadness. It also helps with brain disorders and mental health struggles that are silently sweeping the nation. Every day, more individuals experience anxiety, ADD/ADHD, depression, or other brain-related conditions that cause unbearable suffering.

For the suicidal reader, It will reduce the chance of choosing a permanent solution, (no undo) to a temporary problem. 

When I was around 24 I discovered I was drinking way too much on almost every weekend and often during the week. I would wake up from a blackout with no memory of how I got home. It took a few more years of this then in Sydney I was introduced to AA.

I could not get the 12 steps of recovery from alcoholism to work very well for me, until years of failure led me to rethinking my values.
I was clinging to my atheism, even after acknowledgement of powers greater than myself existing all around me.
However to my surprise, letting go was the missing skill or key to puzzle of a meaningful existence.
What exactly did I have to Let go of? My scientifically valid analysis of Psychology? no, oh yeah, open a rabbit hole of metaphysics with the red or blue pill. Nope
I wanted to get well and I was hearing the same message over and over that the steps work.  
The issue was my science background conflicting with the idea of religious concepts and supreme beings. Research I conducted personally into alcohol addiction and it’s effect on my decision making ability was cause for concern, to put it mildly.
I decided, after a few more attempts that I would "fake it till you make it" as the sign on the AA room said.

A light came on one day after meditating for a while, then asking the universe God of good, for knowledge of his will for me, or her if you want. Calling good orderly direction (god) my God or a power greater than myself.

I kinda said OK I’m ready, what is it? What is your will for me? I waited and waited… deafening silence. I was not going to get a reply today.
It was about this moment of giving up came this voice from the universe that was saying “ what do YOU want?
Well knock me down with a feathery duster.
I have free will. If I do the will of others it's not my free will.
Thanks God of Good orderly direction, for allowing me to decide what path to follow.

In the second Book I reveal the confidence boost that came to me after getting out of prison to hails of Hero and Legend. and the court case I won over Bicycle helmet laws.